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Wednesday, 28 February 2007

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Bolan's Zip Gun
By T. Rex
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pretty girls make entries

Oh Scarjo...

So the ANTM premiere. I kind of love Jael. She sounds like a junkie! Which is weirdly appealing. And...I don't know. I enjoy her. I also like the plus size models and their boobs. Because they all measured their boobs and they were like "__ inches," and I was like, "OMG, me too!" Though they were really super hawtt. Which made me a little sad. Because, well, okay, duh, they're models, but they had hawtt bodies and didn't look like fatties. And I have comparable measurments and have not a hawt body. And stuff. Sadface. Diana is like super fine.

I'm sad Cassandra was sent home. She was so...stupid! But amusingly so! And just like, happeh. I liked Samantha and her impressions and Kathleen and yeah. Renee was a drama queen and eww. Brittney looks like Joan Cusak and that really bothers me.

I wasn't in school on Tuesday! I don't know how to make this up to Sashimi and Eliz. Worry worry worry.

I'm so sick of arting. I mean, I have way more than enough stuff. I'm also getting randomly really sad and stuff. No one will give me a job! Arrg! No matter what I do in the future, be it going of somewhere and doing amazing thigns, or squating in a bulding with a lot of heroin, I'm going to need money. I read this article in like W magazine or something once about how it took 3 days to get emergency contraception but only 40 minutes to get heroin.

When I had my very brief very painful conversation with Handsome Boy, he ended it with "Talk to you later." Which is probably just a thing of habit, but my silly cling-onto-hope-y side hopes that he meant it. Otherwise, I have exhausted the pool of guys I know and will continue feeling crappy and unloveable. Which is super lame. That I'm all dependent on what others think and do for how I feel about myself, but I've already kind of established and accepted that I'm kind of weak and lame. And also too weak/lame to change that. I don't mean to end this depressingly! Ack. Well, look at this:

Seriously, what?

Monday, 26 February 2007

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Rufus Wainwright
By Rufus Wainwright
From this moment on, you'll cease to be...
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The annual, obligiatory post-Oscar entry

Alright! Here's...what the title says.
I totally would have done the predict-y ness this year, but then...why? I have maybe become disillusioned with doing that? It seems kind of silly arguing over who will win, when the people arguing really have no idea. I think I much prefer just having vague favorite movies and preformances this year. I was really bummed when I realized that Children of Men was released on Chirstmas because I was all, "Oh mans, it totally has to kick ass at Oscars 08." But no. Sadface. This year I was super in love with Half Nelson, Children of Men, and Last King of Scotland. Which is not to say I didn't really like Pan's and stuff like, that, but those were definately my top three. Unless I am forgetting stuff. Which I totally am.

Okay! Things that were OMG love:
-Helen Mirren really was hawtt. Like, dayum.

-I actually liked the random opening movie.

-I was really doubting Scorcese would get his, because doesn't the Academy secretly hate him or something? But yay, go him and his crazy eyebrows.

-I very enjoyed the three amigos part deux. (The Mexicans. I would totally hit all of them. At the same time. We could make a queso.)

-the three amigos (old white guy style) made me feel awkward about wanting to be a director. As I am neither old nor white nor male. But all of them together (an sh-shanking Lucas) was cool.

-Abigail Breslin was so cute! And her dress was so cute and age appropriate and just awww!

-Ed Wood clip in the completely unneccessary writer montage! Making up for a severe lack of Deppotato.

-James McAvoy presenting. OMG. The man just...he's not like, say, Clive Owen, who is just devastatingly handsome and just...there with his handsomeness. But he always seems to have this expression on his face that oozes sexy. Like he's always thinking, "Hay ladies..." I can't even handle his...sex oozage. He's so...I want to make babies. So badly.

-Robert Downey Jr. presenting!

-Ryan Gosling! He totally should have gotten more...whatever for his ness in Half Nelson. Though maybe it was released too early. Had he not been up against Forrest Whitaker, I would have been all, "He was robbed!"

-That Ari guy that won for best short film (for West Bank Story?). Awesome speech and name.

-The lady that won for costumeness! And the presentation for costumeness! But that lady that won and her weirdly cool outfit and working with Kubrickness.

-Jennifer Hudson was aww.

Things that were eh:
-Oh Ellen. You're so cute, but just...no. Bring Chris Rock back or something.

-So many pointless time eaters! SO MANY.

-No more Randy Newman! I'm so tired of him and his songs which are like the same freakin' song in like every single animated movie.

-The dance troupe with it's pointlessness was on 60 Mintues once a couple of years ago.

-I never got to see The Departed or Dreamgirls! It eats me up inside...

-Where was Scarjo?!

Things I want to see soon:
-Zodiac!!!!!
-Reno: 911!
-I am terribly curious about The Number 23

Saturday, 17 February 2007

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I'm In Trouble Now
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omg bored bbq

As much as I've tried to fight it for the past few months, I have a huuuuuge crush on Thom Yorke. Not in my typical way. I don't know. I love the Eraser. I've spent entirely too many late nights and quiet afternoons and etc. listening to Radiohead. (Thanks Anna and accidentally Robert and Gab!) It's kind of a misery loving company thing. Maybe. I guess. If you can't have someone with you being happy...and they do (Radiohead) make me weirdly happy even with their depressingness. Though they're being depressed about Society and The Environment and Deep Things, so it's like, okay. (that wasn't even sarcastic.) Even Optimistic is depressing when you really listen to the lyrics. Which was kind of a bummer. Because I was all, "If itry the best I can..." but no. Sometimes I wish some of their stuff was...I don't know..easier to listen to? Not like...I can't explain that well. But they are very good times overall.

Anyway, Thom Yorke. I totally started crushing after seeing the No Surprises music video.

It's like he's dead! But he's not! And it's aww. And I love his weird eye and crazy teeth and etc.
I don't want to come off like I'm some huge fangirl now. I mean, I do genuinely enjoy the musicness. But it's always kind of nng when people are like, "Here's this thing!" and then they like it but then they all start acting liek they are like ZOMG biggest fan ever since forever and...that was a tangent. That sounded kind of eww.

But anyway. Most of all, I like Thom Yorke because he can do crazy things with his voice, and ooh omg I can too. I feel like most people don't believe that, but yeah. I have a freakishly large range. I'm not that great of a singer, but I have...range. Right. I feel like because of that and because I'm weird looking (though not in a cute Thom Yorke-y way...) and he's sad about everything and I'm sad about everything, it's like...koo'. Right. Okay. That sounded so dumb. But it's 5 am so that's cool.

lol omg me 2.